There are very few nights in my life growing up that hold stronger memories in my mind like Sunday nights. Not only of course because I was always sad to see the weekend go, but because I can clearly recall how the light looked in my parents' bedroom, the sound of my mom's laughter while watching "America's Funniest Home Videos", and the feel of her nails as she scratched my back ever so lightly while I laid on my dad's side of the bed watching her little TV along side her.
Those are the moments that I miss with such fierceness that it hurts. Those simple times when everything was OK. When you never thought your world would be turned upside down before your eyes. When you had your mommy and never in a million years thought that you would lose her and her finger nails running down your back so soon.
I wish she were here to do this with our girls....two hands, two backs.
I only hope that I can make those memories with our girls...even if I die when I'm 101 and they're in their 70s...I want them to always remember Sunday nights.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
We're Rolling On...
We're in the third week of school and things couldn't be moving more smoothly...now that I've said that the world may explode, but we'll knock on some wood and be ok :)
The girls are so happy with Jaime and that couldn't make us any happier. Cate has taken to the bottle with ease (thank GOD!) and Kiera plays, does crafts, goes to the library, and sleeps like a champ when she's there. We were SO lucky to find her and are incredibly grateful that our girls are somewhere where they're taken care of as though they were home.
Being back at work has been good as well...even though I miss them with all my heart, I do appreciate the balance of things and enjoy having some adult time...or time to sit and type a blog during my half an hour lunch break. My class is delightful and seem to have it together for the most part, which really helps. I absolutely LOVE teaching...if I didn't I really wasted something like eight years in college for this! It brings me such joy and I'm so glad that I have the opportunity to be both a Mom and a Teacher. Is it hectic? Are there some mornings when I just want to lounge around with the girls in our PJs all day? Certainly. But this gives me a really flexible schedule to be able to do both throughout the year.
Sean's schedule is slowing down too as the fall approaches, which is great. There's nothing I love more than when all four of us are home and are able to spend some real quality time together...when there's no laundry, cooking, cleaning, or work to catch up on....which is rare :) Kiera just adores him and it warms my heart to see the two of them play and play. When Cate's more mobile, she'll be right in there with them...I'm so excited to see it.
I'm doing a little "cleaning house" of my own head and heart recently as well. I've decided to really focus on my own mind and body instead of worrying about what everyone else thinks about me. There's been so much negativity coming at me recently, but also in the past few years when I should have been ecstatic for so many reasons. The burden of thoughts that people have put on me have been so unhealthy and ridiculous that it's time to detach...forever. Instead, I'm going to put my attention towards my amazing husband, our gorgeous girls, my loving and fantastic Dad, and our family and friends whom I know love us and our family to pieces...no matter what.
So we continue on with a great start to my "year"! I have a wonderful aid in here with me who I don't know if I'll ever be able to live without...we're making an amazing team! I have a great class who are going to spoil me this year!! I have the most well adjusted to any situation girls who are loving the care they're being given! And I'm loving life!
The girls are so happy with Jaime and that couldn't make us any happier. Cate has taken to the bottle with ease (thank GOD!) and Kiera plays, does crafts, goes to the library, and sleeps like a champ when she's there. We were SO lucky to find her and are incredibly grateful that our girls are somewhere where they're taken care of as though they were home.
Being back at work has been good as well...even though I miss them with all my heart, I do appreciate the balance of things and enjoy having some adult time...or time to sit and type a blog during my half an hour lunch break. My class is delightful and seem to have it together for the most part, which really helps. I absolutely LOVE teaching...if I didn't I really wasted something like eight years in college for this! It brings me such joy and I'm so glad that I have the opportunity to be both a Mom and a Teacher. Is it hectic? Are there some mornings when I just want to lounge around with the girls in our PJs all day? Certainly. But this gives me a really flexible schedule to be able to do both throughout the year.
Sean's schedule is slowing down too as the fall approaches, which is great. There's nothing I love more than when all four of us are home and are able to spend some real quality time together...when there's no laundry, cooking, cleaning, or work to catch up on....which is rare :) Kiera just adores him and it warms my heart to see the two of them play and play. When Cate's more mobile, she'll be right in there with them...I'm so excited to see it.
I'm doing a little "cleaning house" of my own head and heart recently as well. I've decided to really focus on my own mind and body instead of worrying about what everyone else thinks about me. There's been so much negativity coming at me recently, but also in the past few years when I should have been ecstatic for so many reasons. The burden of thoughts that people have put on me have been so unhealthy and ridiculous that it's time to detach...forever. Instead, I'm going to put my attention towards my amazing husband, our gorgeous girls, my loving and fantastic Dad, and our family and friends whom I know love us and our family to pieces...no matter what.
So we continue on with a great start to my "year"! I have a wonderful aid in here with me who I don't know if I'll ever be able to live without...we're making an amazing team! I have a great class who are going to spoil me this year!! I have the most well adjusted to any situation girls who are loving the care they're being given! And I'm loving life!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
End of Summer...Beginning of Work
I began work last week and the girls have adjusted perfectly to our new routine. They LOVE Jaime and Kiera will ask for her and her son, Luke, when she's not with them! We're so happy and feel so at ease knowing that they're in the best hands during the day when we can't be with them.
This past weekend we headed on down to Lewes, Delaware to see my friend and her family for the weekend. Her mom gave us use of her amazing condo so that we'd have plenty of room to spread out...and God knows, we did!! I cannot express the fun we had there. It was such a nice change of pace to be out of New Jersey with our family and have a mini-vaca with great friends! Our girls are all the same age...so it's THE BEST! Kiera and Mia are 6 weeks apart and Cate and Mikaela are 3 months apart. To see them together was amazing. Kiera and Mia played and played and played. We put Cate and Mikaela in the same pack-n-play at the beach and they were all over each other...it was ADORABLE!! Sean and John are kindred spirits and enjoyed some male bonding over grills, fire pits, tents, boats, and the huge clam bake they set up for us all to eat on Sunday night. We were so sad to leave. I know that I speak for both of us when I say that I'm SO glad the girls have "cousins" to grow up with!
In fact we've been so blessed with all the births this past year for our girls. Cate has so many freaking people to play with she won't know what to do with herself and Kiera gets to be a big sister to so many...it's great. I'm from a very small family with few cousins my age, so this is simply thrilling for me to have people with babies so close in age to our children. Our girls are super lucky!
This past weekend we headed on down to Lewes, Delaware to see my friend and her family for the weekend. Her mom gave us use of her amazing condo so that we'd have plenty of room to spread out...and God knows, we did!! I cannot express the fun we had there. It was such a nice change of pace to be out of New Jersey with our family and have a mini-vaca with great friends! Our girls are all the same age...so it's THE BEST! Kiera and Mia are 6 weeks apart and Cate and Mikaela are 3 months apart. To see them together was amazing. Kiera and Mia played and played and played. We put Cate and Mikaela in the same pack-n-play at the beach and they were all over each other...it was ADORABLE!! Sean and John are kindred spirits and enjoyed some male bonding over grills, fire pits, tents, boats, and the huge clam bake they set up for us all to eat on Sunday night. We were so sad to leave. I know that I speak for both of us when I say that I'm SO glad the girls have "cousins" to grow up with!
In fact we've been so blessed with all the births this past year for our girls. Cate has so many freaking people to play with she won't know what to do with herself and Kiera gets to be a big sister to so many...it's great. I'm from a very small family with few cousins my age, so this is simply thrilling for me to have people with babies so close in age to our children. Our girls are super lucky!
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